help

i tremble

theyre gonna eat me alive...

fallen

and if i have to crawl will you crawl too? i stumble and fall carry me through the wonder of it all is you see me through

i am wicked

lifes more painless for the brainless why think too hard?

goethe

our planet is the mental institution of the universe

dont forget the things youve done...

the edge im sliding over slowly

tell me that its gonna be okay. tell me that youll help me find my way. tell me you can see the light of dawn is breaking. tell me that its gonna be allright. tell me that youll help me fight this fight. tell me that you wont leave me alone in this.

cause i need a hand to hold to hold me from the edge

genesis

its been there from the beginning.

sin. and you cant stop it. can you?

the rodents:

the sky is falling & the line is firing down...

watch out watch out for the tenfold cross

cold

i feel very very afraid... (and alone)

frenzied...

oh you go on and youll be happier youll be happier

you go on yeah you go on

youll be gone and ill be happier... or will i?

theres a boy

...with a half smile and i want to make that otherside crack

doctorjones doctorjones

human is just a condition and i, doctor, need to be cured.

desolate

i feel this great space and im drowning in it...

empty

i find the lives of others uncomfortable places.

i cant stay long i cannot linger in your business...

(im scared)

he said:

come down and well muck around ;)

the present future

the future is here the future is now...

waiting for now

lets lose ourselves in this city scarred with graffiti and infiltrated with smoke and sins

lets lose ourselves amongst people without names and without identities and with nothing but bodies when theres nothing but now

we were

more chilled than a freezer. if only the moment could have been frozen in time...

how can i complain?

id be lying if i said i was completely unscathed...

cusp

darker than midnights shadow

her heart rattled around in that cage they called her body

her arms shook as she lifted her head high and screamed with all her might.

as the sky faded from inky blue-black to a paler shade she frowned at the dismal prospect of living another day in the world where no one had pragmatic features...

dark blue dark blue

have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

necropolis

city of the dead calls me.... under. everything isnt okay...

one last candle to keep out the night

it hurts and it hurts but i know deep down that the pain one day will be gain and that i will be able to smile for a change and no longer let tears fall alone...

cya cya wouldnt wanna be ya

it took hours and hours.

i saw him and i didnt feel a thing.

eet

she floats home alone and see girls girls girls, leaning on telegraph posts to hold themselves up. in the city where blood ran with liquor and where you could dance til the afternoon after she was all alone with not even the message receivers and responders as her friends. lonely and cold. unkissed. she went to be and tried to dream. again

i did not write this

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Chops"

because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and a gold star

And his mother hung it on the kitchen door

and read it to his aunts

That was the year that Father Tracy

took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus

And his little sister was born

with tiny toenails and no hair

And his mother and father kissed a lot

And the girl around the corner sent him a

valentine signed with a row of X's

and he had to ask his father what the X's meant

And his father always tucked him in bed at night

And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Autumn"

because that was the name of the season

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and asked him to write more clearly

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because of its new paint

And the kids told him

that Father Tracy smoked cigars

And left butts on the pews

And sometimes they would burn holes

That was the year his sister got glasses

with thick lenses and black frames

And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus

And the kids told him why

his mother and father kissed a lot

And his father never tucked him in bed at night

And his father got mad

when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Innocence: A Question"

because that was the question about his girl

And that's what it was all about

And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because he never showed her

That was the year that Father Tracy died

And he forgot how the end

of the Apostle's Creed went

And he caught his sister making out on the back porch

And his mother and father never kissed

or even talked

And the girl around the corner

wore too much makeup

That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway

because that was the thing to do

And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed

his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag

he tried another poem

And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"

Because that's what it was really all about

And he gave himself an A

and a slash on each damned wrist

And he hung it on the bathroom door

because this time he didn't think

he could reach the kitchen.

please please please

back off.

i cant breathe... (i havent done a thing) i wont go if im not wanted

the kings thirtysecond son

+ to see me made her awful sad + and to touch me made her awful sad + to see me made her awful + to touch me made her awful

long live the king long live the king long live the queen...

wake up in the morning + thought oedipus oedipus oedipus oedipus

im the kings thirtysecond son...

and it never grew...

and i thought:

my god. ill never have the moon-

the night i first met you

floating home

my hair holds the irresistible scent of smoke, mingled with desire after the night that now is passing...

my sweetest downfall...

the history books forgot about us and the bible didnt mention us

(not even once)

purge

if i wash away all my sins will anything be left?

glittery fairytales

WHERE THE FUCK DO PLIERS RUN OFF TO??

trophy scars

we walked and wept and wondered who would save us

was it you or me who talked of being dangerous...

i may as well...

annotate and decorate your world

then light it on fire.

the red

IM THE OBSESSOR HOLDING YOUR HAND

killer kisser

"she hid around corners & she hid under beds

she killed it with kisses and from it she fled

with every bubble she sank with her drink

and washed it away down the kitchen sink"

lets get up early and see how long we last...

away away says hate;

closer closer says love.

hardi hey hardi har

pretty pretty poison

we wait wait wait

then we die die die.

do you ever feel like youre drowning? all the time.

constantly. i want to put my hands in the in air. its like im trying to signal to someone that my demise has begun.

im...

F..ucked up

I...nsecure

N..eurotic &

E..motional

the heel and toe...

lets swim. miss fishy fishy (oh, fish eye)

lets dance. dance in the sky. with little miss. miss cutie pie.

little sister...

drowning in sadness and unable to dream, she has drifted deeper and deeper into the darkness of her sleep. And when darkness consumes the starlight, nightmares rule the night...

i think im dying...

"the smoke may make my lungs black as tea, but it makes my mind clean as canvas"

i want. to. go out. side. to the world. where i dont have to hide.

i want

to me more than just dust. absord me up and let me shine...

a listless winters day

he looked at me with eyebrows raised and said:

theres no point reasoning with the unreasonable.

even though youre gone for now, remember i love you.

x says y says

x says:

*unnamed* is a man whore, cunt who uses women

y says:

excuse me? please explain!

x says:

the amount of times ive wanted to stomp on that kids head

x says:

when i here him and that talk about how many birds tey have two timed

x says:

wtf is wrong with u women

x says:

fucking all delirious

y says:

i was with him for like a month...

let me

.get lost in the night.

i ramble and i roll

unfurl your wings motherfucker and take the plunge.

maybe youll fly fly fly?

'ehhh actually..? you say

but i ask why why why?

well what about what i want?

what if what i want is what i cant have or what if what i want is you?

you you you...

one day

will be my day. ill fly away. wing of a bird. bird on a wire.

(now please take a moment to admire my attire)

...fake.

the day

...was so hot you melted into your surroundings

she just wanted to step out of her skin and run away. for more reasons than one.

shine

In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.

- albert camus