mystified

i have never been so mystified, perplexed, bewildered, even, in my life.

out of the blue today i had a message from a good male friend of mine. this message was asking me out.

so i just replied. about 7 hours later that while i treasure our friendship, i cant have a boyfriend at the moment.

and that i hope that we wont stop being friends. BUT heres the thing. as soon as one person puts their heart on the line friendships have no choice but to change.

everything is even more fucked up now. i need to go out tonight. the lovely mr R has invited me to his, where hopefully boy X will be. i think ill rope some friends into coming with me...